Power in Motherhood: A Collection of Short Stories
By: Melissa Harper | Date: March 30 2019
By Molly Flinkman
I hear her coming from the other side of the door. Her feet hit the ground, her scream reverberates off the walls, and I open the door just before she has time to slam her hands into it.
I pick her up and walk her back to her bed. I tell her I love her and walk back out. The door closes behind me, and I hear her feet coming again.
We do this dance for an hour almost every night.
And, almost every night when it is finally over, I collapse on the living room floor: a heap of exhaustion and frustration and self-pity.
Powerless. I feel completely powerless.
And yet, the next morning I wake up.
And it is in those quiet, early moments that I start to see the power of a new day. The power of making a choice to love her well in spite of all the other previous days.
Screams and slammed doors sound particularly powerful in the hush of day slipping into night, but they are a far cry from the power of letting things like grace and self-control quietly drive me forward.
I am more powerful when I am restrained and kind and committed to loving my girl well.
And so, I keep waking up. And I keep doing the dance. And I keep reminding myself that this girl needs me to love her fiercely.
She needs me to show her what real power looks like so that her own can be channeled and serve her well in all her days to come.
I know it will.
Molly Flinkman is a midwestern mom of three kids (under the age of four). She’s a teacher turned stay-at-home mom, a wife of a resident doctor, and, mostly, just a particularly average person trying to live each day well (while drinking all the coffee). You can connect with her on Instagram (@mflinkman) and find more of her writing at mollyflinkman.com.
Originally posted 2017-04-09 14:49:04.